I have to confess that I didn't expect that Amsterdam would be a place that inspires me constantly the perception towards life and human.

 

Well, the truth turned out to be rather contrary.

The city amazed me just as an intense collection of colors that contract seductively fine in a picture of Van Gogh's.

 

The color of life.

 

Freedom, passion, fallen nature, sexual perversity, easiness, coexist with creativity, diversity, spirituality and the uniqueness of its artistic impression.

 

You can live as a happy homeless wandering around the red light street flirting with half-naked chicks in the windows or as a lost millionaire playing sad cello alongside the canal.

You might get no attention carrying a LV bag in season but there is a good chance to win the whistle smoking your joint in a charming post.

 

Comfort is the king.

Appreciate average is the way.

 

Forget about ambitions and excellence

Satisfy just what achievable

No worries about stocks and numbers

Why not enjoy cheeses and flowers

 

Live the way that makes a life

 

To play, kids

To play, adults

 

To laugh, for everything

To cry, for nothing

 

To love, gays and les

To die, regulations

 

Be happy, if you want to

Be sad, if you want to

 

Be good if you want to

Be bad if you want to

 

Sing a new song

Praise faith

虽然Ben 说离开与成长会让我们在不知不觉中丢失了朋友

但是 成长的每个阶段 总会有一些亲爱或重要的人 相伴 分享 彼此关怀

好开心 这个生日 有你们

 

Thank you guys!! - chronologically：

Pete, thanks for the sweet wishes in super advance and the lovely lovely gifts!

Sunny & Sunking 简直太爱你们啦! Thanks for double cakes & double cream!

HY and Rich, thanks for driving miles and bringing so much fun to the day and the dinner table!

Ken, thanks for being there watching me grow and contributing bitter and sweet elements into this process!

Mike, what a surprise you always have my BD in mind, thank you!

Wisely, thanks for being such a cool buddy ever since I'm in the Netherland

and WoW, you know I love Sushi!

 

XoXo

虽然落雨落到要吐

但我未免还是太爱欧洲拉 

也许 注定 要在此寻找生命中缺失的部分

 

记得在上海的时候 每次经过领馆区 都会被莫名的直觉牵引

仿佛梧桐后院落中的老洋房里 尘封着某段遗失的过往 与我紧密相连

Shawn说La Bella关了门  最美好的时光 永远只在记忆里 一直都记得

 

在欧陆 很多时候 有强烈的回溯感

仿佛很久很久以前 曾经在此存在过

 

对一些词语有莫名的敏感度 比如

中央火车站 运河 风琴 咖啡馆 诗人 旅人

 

据说人在不自觉情形下的哼唱是灵魂的诉说

今天在中央火车站门外等车的时候 哼起了很旧很旧的许巍来

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

Tonight...

 

 

 

 

 

"weeping may endure for the night, but joy is coming in the morning." - <Psalm 30:5>

 

It's been long since I had a long dedicated private time of just being with GOD. Even though a daily prayer in the morning is already a habit，I start to feel the frailty in the faith.

 

Like a plan, GOD allowed a brother in Christ played a role of just hurrying me out of the office the end of the day when I was sticking at my desk just because others were still around.

 

On the way, I started to talk about the trust in GOD and realized that I was actually trying to strengthen myself in this way. Strongly, I felt I was thirsty for the holy input. I wanted to just be with our GOD for a while, privately, just me and GOD, to hear his voice and be able to understand his guide. The scenario that I experienced with GOD at Haarlem beach appeared again and again in my mind. I was overwhelmed by gracefulness and sense of repentent.

 

How petty and low I am, yet GOD loves me. How weak and less faithful I am, yet GOD loves me, how guilty and unpleasant I am, yet GOD loves me! I felt so thankful that GOD lifted me up when I was down in the deep dark sea. Not only has he lifted me up, he raised me to the top of the high mountain so that I could reach the most beautiful rainbow that I could never ever have imagined.

 

Later at night, I was watching Joel Osteen’s preach on YouTube. Again, GOD used him to inspire me by delivering the powerful message: “GOD is in Control even when you see nothing. GOD is working even when there is no single sign at the moment.”  I prayed and I was refilled.  This is amazing, our GOD is almighty yet his love is unconditionally!

 

My heart is full of warmth and peace, my soul is empowered. I gave myself a big smile, like Joel always tell us to do, and reminded myself: if GOD is with us, who can stand against us. There is nothing to fear, to worry as HE plans everything. Keep moving forward, improving life in a better way that GOD is pleased for, keep loving when love is destroyed by devils, keep believing in GOD whenever, wherever, however. As I am convinced, HE is the only one who is in control, what I should do is to fulfill what HE plans for me. Lord, please help me use the rest of my life to glorify YOU!

 

 

我真的很想去很想去很想去很想去很想去很想去很想去...... T_T

横 我礼拜五就要去 我不要错过了秋天 我要去买一件暖暖的袍子过冬